Monday, February 20, 2012

oh yeah, i remember her


Periodically I forget who I am. Does that ever happen to you? It's dreadful.

But lately I'm remembering who I really am deep down in buried places. It's like a light went on inside of me. Most of the time I'm fairly bad company for myself because I'm so self-critical, but these days I'm admiring things about myself that I had forgotten about.

For instance, I'm funny. I hate it when that part of me gets obscured because it's so fun to laugh and play. When I recover my laughter and lightness even the parts of me that I'd like to change seem kind of funny to me. When you're laughing everything seems kind of easy.

The other night I was laughing about something with David so hard that I got into a coughing spasm that almost killed me but it felt really good. That kind of laughter feels like a good massage afterwards. You get all relaxed and warm and satisfied. I want to do that more.

I wonder if Jesus ever told jokes? I suspect he had a pretty good sense of humor. When you look around with your eyes wide open your only choices are to laugh or cry. Or both.

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  1. Wow Terri. Your comment thingie is not giving me grief. That is a real miracle. I am not sure if it is google or my laptop. Or both. I totally love this blog. You know I love this blog, right?

    Of course God has a sense of humor. Look at Jonah. He also has a southern accent. Cuz he looked at Jonah and said, "Boy, I say, boy, we goin behind the wood shed for a spankin ova this."

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    1. glad my comment section isn't giving you attitude anymore. you're pretty funny too.

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  2. Well dang - it! You shoulda asked me --- I think of you as funny ... that is a top three word that pops up when I think "Terri C."

    Deep
    Funny
    Artistic

    not that my three words come anywhere near defining you ... hellz no!

    Just wanted to tell you funny for sure made the list.

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    1. tara, when i first read your comment i thought that last word was "autistic" and i thought, "how does she know that?" ha! oh, and "funny" would be on the top of my descriptors of you too. funny, sentimental, irreverent. :)

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  3. I love this too. In fact, Christianne and I talked about my penchant to laugh earlier this week. I sort of hit this place where life tossed so many curve balls my way that I had to learn to laugh - that or curl up in a ball and die. So I laugh, and I'm glad you're laughing too :) (just another reason to know that we'll be friends in real life some day!)

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    1. it does get to be funny after a while when one thing after another careen's off the cliff. and now i'm curious what your laugh sounds like. hopefully i'll hear it sooner rather than later.

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  4. you're hilarious AND you have the best laugh, making you doubly fun to be around. love you much!

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    1. agreed, T you have one of the best laughs I've ever heard

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    2. and yer damn funny too :)

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    3. thanks you guys. i've always kind of been self-conscious about the sound of my laugh, but i just can't help myself. :)

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